Doesn't feels good at all :'(

Fuck la. Shouldn't have go anyway tonight. Tercalar my brother's new car :'( then he blame on me said i was wrong. He blame me cause i am the unclucky one who damage the new car first , if my situation change to his, he wouldn't said anything. I can just blame why is it i am so unlucky. Haih. Tought i feels good ? I doesn't feels good at all but feels more pain then what you feel cause i am the one who damage it. I promise won't drive your car anymore even i don't have any car to drive.

I think she gots her one :'(

Maybe thats my fault.
And I really didn't blame anyone of you all.
But I know sometimes I am still acting like a kid.
I really don't want to just can't control my self.
Maybe I'm not a really good friend for you.
But I really treat you as my good friends or even can be brother/sister already.
Not said I don't give you chance.
I have already give you alot chance if you think back.
And you must understand my feelings.
I feel so hurt and sad sometimes.
And I also feel that I'm so bad to you all.
Sometimes I choose to keep it to my self is not like I want people to pity me and all stuff like this and I don't like.
So DON'T EVER do that to me ok ?
Sometimes you feel that I'm trying to let people know how sad am I and all stuff.
Thats not I want it to be is I can't really make it to the positive way.
Everything run in my mind :(
And maybe we all wouldn't meet any more in our future.
So I really don't want it ends like that.
Really...
I just want everything to be fine.
I just want everyone to be happy especially.....

If you were in this situation what will you do ?

Aaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh !
I feel like shouting out loud but I just can't :'(

Why you guys should treat me like this once again ? whyyy ? I just wanna know why ? Isn't that difficult ?
I'm so sick of it do you know that ?
You make me so sad & so RANDOM !
I just can't get away from that feeling even my brother can see that something goes wrong with me.

She called me today at 11.46 p.m. :D
And it makes me (:
Today is my lucky day.

The day is getting near and near ,
I am getting stress day by day ,
I don't know I can stand for it or i choose to give up ,
I don't know why is it really hard for me to get into my head ,
It stucks on one way usually ,
However I still need to face it :(
Hope I can get a great one :D
You guys too my friend :D
Good Luck ! I mean SPM xD

I just don't have the feeling right now ,
Should I feel sad that I have kind of friend like you ?
Sometimes I really....