Gold Medal =D

10 / 10 / 2010...
I went to Taekwando T.Y.C Championship ,
Today was my first time joining competition ,
And also my first sparling expirence ,
I was very scared before I entered the court ,
But I told my self that I can't lose to him ,
First round I fight with one Cheras Perdana guy (Tall) ,
He's damn freaking ganas lo ,
Main kick only ,
He kicked my cock 3 time le ,
Then I damn angry le ,
Straight kick him till his leg pain ,

P/S : But my leg pain also =p

I won for the 1st round then straight in final ,
Fight with one blue belt melay guy ,
I just score very little point >< ,
Actually I do more better de but that time my leg was really pain 3rd time injured on competition >< ,
Pain daoooo !
Almost beh tahan already ,
But I don't wan lose to him ,
So I also straight kick ,
Luckly beat him by one point ,
Fuhhhh ! I was very luckly le =D ,
But sad thing is she cannot see me fight =( ,
If she was there I guess I can do much much more better de lo ,
Haih !
Till here I guess , Damn sleepy le don't tomorrow still can walk or not >< ....

I Really Hate Myself !!!

2/10/2010 12.55 ...
I was blogging ,

I think that I am the most STUPID people in this world ,
Am I sampah masyarakat ? ,
I guess I am ='( ,
This few days my mood really no good le ,
I feel like crying but I don't want to cry ,
When I blogging this I finally cry out ,
I think back why am I so STUPID ? Why Why Why !!! ,
And I did a really wrong thing just now thw worst one ever ,
I scolded my mum ,
And my mum said that I really no need go to school study le use those bad word scold parents ,
What The Fuck goiing on with you , Tan Kai Le ,
Fuck Tan Kai Le FUCKKK !!! ,
How can you scold your mum like that ? ,
I cried and ask my self this question ,
I feel that myself is the worst son ever ,
I already make so many thing that let my parents angry ,
At here I want to say sorry to my mum and dad ,
Thanks both of you born me out in this world without both of you then it will be without Tan Kai Le this people in this world ,
I am really sorry that I am the worst son for you both ,
Sorry ='(
I will try to be at least the good son starting from now ,
I won't make you both angry again ,
PROIMISE !!

Just now when I was crying suddenly my sister come in ,
I don't want let them know that I cried...

1/10/2010

Today finally gave the present to herr le ,

Waiting herr for so long cause she got the PMR de taklimat ,
I had took my brave-ness out finally to get near to herr ,
But I can feel herr not really like it I guess ? ,
Haih ...
Nvm bah I have done what I should do ,
This really make me moody , Just like what Mr.Theng said bah (laugh) ,
But that doesn't makes me feel good ,
I feel like gonna The End Of The World soon ,
And my heart I like really pain can't describe the feeling , is just like a sharp knife poke into my heart ,
Isn't I already starting to give up or I really trying to kill myself ?

She said thanks to me online just now =D ,
First I was really happy but half way she treat me cool again le ,
Tat Cheng told me that Wei Lun sms herr whole day ,
Mayb they really sms-ing happily gua ,
There should be no me around herr i guess ,
But anyway doesn't it if you really do love one person what you did is just want herr to be happy right ? ,
I did anything is just want herr to be happy ,
That what I wish for ,
It doesn't mean I really can be with herr ,
But i really hope so ...